totally different

My friend Camela just sent me this quote..

"If an angel and a devil were to fall in love with each other, can their love transcend the law of heaven and hell? Can the angel set her wings on fire?.. Can the devil soar at day light?.. ..This is faith's decree. Love can't change what aren't meant to be.."

Parang tama di ba? It got me thinkin for a very long while and realized na "di talaga pwede.." ..afterall, angels and devils don't seem to fall for each other.. you think they can relate?.. hmmmm..

To have other's opinion (expecting na i would get same view as i see it), i sent it to one of my close friends aiko and was surprised by her reply.. "tingin mo?,, pwede noh?.." ..i was like, aiko are you all ryt?! then i texted her, "gnun?! pwede?" thinkin she was just kiddin.. but when she replied, "pwede", i ask her.. "paano un?! san sila magsasama together? ge nga?! hmmmmmm..".. she just answered.. "compromise".. then i started thinkin again..

Could they really fall for one another?.. if they do, where would they live? in heaven or in hell? who would give way?... seems so impossible.. but if you're going to take a deeper look, parang my point din si cooletz (tawag ko kay aiko)..

I started making kulit to her.. askin what compromise means.. "meet halfway" she said.. onga naman.. they could meet halfway if they want to.. nasa pag-uusap din yan.. kung talagang gusto nila bkit di sila pareho mag-adjust..

the devil could turn his back to satan and follow jesus just to have the angel, or the other way round.. hehe..oh di ba pwede din yun? sacrifice! yun ang tawag dun..may dapat mag-give way..syempre my mga disadvantage yun but still, love pa din ang nasunod..

sa case ng angel at devil, you'll never know..pwede din naman sila mainlove sa isa't isa di ba..you see, there's also the possibilty for them to fall for each other..one of physics' law, "opposite attracts".. haha!! ..so pwede tlaga..my different races nga na nagkakatuluyan eh kahit ibang iba ang culture na kinamulatan at nakasanayan nila..gaya ni ruffa at ylmaz..kaya lang nagkahiwalay din.. hahaha!!!

but it's true. people from different worlds could fall for each other..and aiko also added.. "that's life. sometimes you fall for persons you least expected to"..and if ever they push what they want, you can't ignore what other people might say..siyempre my mga feedbacks yan from people.. gossips at kung anu anong intriga..positive and negative..or even what each side might say, yung family nila pareho..eto naman sabi ni aiko bout that.. "bkit mo iisipin yung iba? if your that much inlove and you can show it, sooner or later each side will learn to accept it. kasi that's where you're happy. and by the end of the day, what really matters is that you're happy with your life.."

so para matapos na to, at mukhang may nasabi naman ako na may sense kahit papano, here's what i've realized..

yeah..tama si aiko.. bakit mo nga naman iintindihin ang sasabihin ng ibang tao. buhay mo yan..ikaw lang ang nakakaalam what's best for you and what will make you happy.. advantages and disadvantages would be there syemre. it would just take sacrifices and efforts at sa huli, kaw din ang panalo..at mali yung quote na yun..hehe.. .. lahat pwede mabago..and it's not true that love can't change what aren't meant to be..pwede yun..

those were the days....

i miss the days when things seemed so easy.. problems were not sooo complicated.. studies were just like playin.. lotsa friends were around..

the day would start and end sa school.. 12:30 pa ang class but 1 hr before the 1st subject, papasok na para tumambay, makipagkwentuhan sa mga friends.. syempre the main reason is para maka-"hebor" sa crush na nasa morning session!! (hik!) =) ..tambay muna sa bleacher at magbabasa ng mga kung anong naka-vandal dun just like this one na up to now eh naaalala ko pa..it goes like....

"don't make me promisses baby,
you never did know how to keep them well.
i had the rest of you, now i want the best of you,
it's time to show and tell..."

hmmmm.. parang kanta yun ah?!! hehe..message ni mhel kay ato the time they just got started at nagaaway na agad! haha!

sa loob ng classroom, ang daming pwedeng gawin, as long as you won't be caught by teachers.. pero pag my teacher na, khit magcharge ng fone is a No No..while the teacher was still out, you would play the radio na dala mo para sa practice ng dance na ipeperform nyo sa school program.. magttransfer sa seat at the back kasi andun yung mga katsokaran mo.. azaran na mauuwi sa batuhan ng crushed papers. then, pagdating ng teacher, there, dumpsite na ang classroom..haha!!

sa recess, since mahal ang food sa canteen and the taste wasn't that good, pupuslit kayo nila juver palabas ng gate. kayang kaya naman kasi ka-good naman si tatang dante.. (yung guard)..susunod naman sa inyo yung mga gurls like sila fhe at jelai..(half of the section ang nasa labas na!) yey!! .. pupunta sa meriendahan ni ate rosel at dun oorder ng spaghetti na ipapalaman sa tinapay..gagawing 30 mins ang 15 mins break at magkkwentuhan muna habang nagrerest.. babalik sa school na late na para sa subject na math.. hihi!

maya lang konte values education na.. last subject na at uwian na mamayang 6:20.. after ng class, di pa muna uuwi.. tatambay muna sa guard house while waiting for the cleaners na makatapos maglinis. (peo pag ikaw na ang cleaner eh di naman nglilinis!)..wala lang, ayaw pa umuwi eh..haha! then you would realize na kayo na lang pala ng mga classmates mo ang natitira sa school at kayo na naman ang magsasara ng gate! (kewl!!)

paglabas ng gate, di pa muna sasakay sa trike na nagaabang sa labas at maglalakad pa kayo papunta sa kanto habang nagkkwentuhan at sinasabayan ang dinidigahan..moment na yun! haha!! pagdating sa kanto ay tatambay pa muna ulet sa harap ng grocery store at maghihintay ng makukursunadahang trike na sasakyan. hintayin pa na medyo magalit yung babae sa tindahan kasi nakaharang kaming lhat sa tindahan nya..( pasaway!) at tsaka pa lang papara ng trike for the gurls.. at kami naman mga guys ay maglalakad lang pauwi..walkin distance na lang kasi nalakad na namin yung kalahati..hahaha!!!

whenever you got a problem, anjan ang barkada. ooops.. di lang pala barkada.. kaibigan.. yeah, friends, real friends.. sarap kasama.. advices kahit pareparehong walang alam, support kahit di naman sila payag, at comfort kahit you both don't feel at ease..there were times pa na i felt i am better off staying in school rather than being at home. you won't even be bothered to check the time pag kasama mo sila. and you would say "fuck, gabi na pala. bukas na lang ulet.."

magpapaalm sa bahay na gagawa ng investigatory project.. ayun, maghapon nang mawawala, at kung sansan na makakarating. mapapadpad sa san isidro at maghahouse to house sa mga bhay ng classmates na para bang my nangangampanya.. aabutan na ng time ng merienda sa kung kaninong bahay at dun manginginain. nanjan yung quail eggs kila elaine, tinapay kila nep o kaya bayabas sa puno nila marivie..

there were times pa na khit saturday eh nasa school kami just to see each other at magkukulitan. kahit walang ginagawa eh bumabalik pa rin sa school o kaya nman eh mgpupunta sa sementeryo sa san juan at dun tatambay.. (aztig noh?!)..minsan naman pag my typhoon at canceled ang classes eh di pa rin uuwi.. didiretso sa house nila leth sa palapat at dun muna magsstay, kukunin ang gitara at collection nya ng songhits at magjajaming maghapon habang malakas ang ulan!.. ang tyaga noh?!

magseset ng picnic oh kaya ng kahit anung lakad basta mgkasama-sama lang. we felt na parang nakakainip sa kanya kanyang bahay kaya laging gumagala..okay lang khit ginisang sardinas ang lunch at juice na maligamgam ang inumin.. haha!!

the teachers seemed so mean to us.. sa FILIPINO, mababaliw ka sa pag intindi sa mga salawikain ni mam tanuig.. mapipilitan kang mgcross stitch sa time ni sir noel sa THE (was it right to force the boys na magcross stitch?!).. exhausted dahil sa mga PHYSICS laws, theories, and principles ni mam rona.. magexercise sa PEHM khit nasa loob ng classroom (duh?!!) kasama si sir mhacks.. aantukin sa mga worded problem ni mam libao sa MATH.. nosebleed sa mga idioms ni mam mallari sa ENGLISH..aabutin ng umay sa world history ni mam galang sa SOCIAL STUDIES.. at magpapakabait naman dahil sa mga sermon ni mam aimee sa VALUES (di naman effective!).. ..but come to think of it.. it really helped alot.. and salamat po sa kanila..

back then, madaming nanyare.. lahat na yata ng "firsts" andun na! ..first poem (how sweet!!).. first courtship (dyahe!!).. first gurlfriend (wahooo!!).. first dump (ouchh!!).. first kiss (ayiii, kilig!!).. at first &*%.. sorry, private na yun! hahah!!

haaaayyy..those were the days.. the high school days..no regrets na masyado akong naging attached sa mga yun kaya hinahanap hanap ko pa.... life was simple.. friends were real.. contentment was there.. madaling maging masaya.. and if i would be given a chance to live through it all over again, i won't think twice. i would!!!..

a whole new world!

makati makati makati.. new world it seems, coz i really used to live in the province.. yeah, promdi po. nasanay sa lilim ng mga thick canopy of trees, rice fields, fresh air though it's not that fresh anymore since lotsa vehicles are there na din sa place namin, and the people i get to meet everyday.. ibang iba lahat..

this summer, i started my training sa isang company somewhere in makati. eveyday i hafta wake up sooo early.. 5am. oi, maaga na yun para saken! hehe.. fixing myself, dressing up, havin breakfast then leave.. araw araw na lang laging ganun. nakakapagod lumuwas at umuwi..well, u may say, pwede nman ako mgbording hauz, bkit uwian pa ko.. it's just, i don't feel comfortable sleepin sa hindi ko bed. ayoko din nung my ibang gumgamit ng cr na hindi ko msyadong kilala. arte ko ba? cguro nga.. and other reasons are, di ako snay maglaba, mamalantsa at magluto. eh sa bahay, pgdating ko may nkaprepare na agad na food. kakain na lang.. ayun, those are the real reasons..hehe

well, di naman ito ang first time i've gone to manila siyempre.. often times am out here with friends, and cuzins.. but to be here everyday, parang nakakapanibago. feeling ko lagi ako nagmamadali.. people are always in a hurry. they seem always busy. khit sa paglalakad lang, you would notice na prang kung mabagal ka, walang mangyayari sa 'yo. you would be just left behind by people.. FAST PHASING ANG BUHAY dito..


the PUV's.. one is MRT.. everybody knows how to deal with this damn train! pag rush hour, papasok ka pa lang ng station sobra dami na ng tao. siksikan agad and you hafta be patient sa mga taong walang pakialam sa iba basta mauna lang pagsakay. it doesn't matter kung gurl ka or what. bahala ka sa buhay mo basta sila, sasakay at sasakay. dun ka makakakita ng mga tao throwing their shoulders and elbows to each other. one time nga ako pa napagkamalan ng isang nanay na tumulak sa kanya. ayun, sinipa pa ko..buhay nga naman.


there's always a feeling of alertness na sometimes it had me feel uncomfortable.. parang paranoid na cguro. hehe.. am always chekin out if my fone and my wallet are still in my pocket.. yung bag or pants ko baka tastas na ng blade.. baka someone is following me already..you know.. mandurukot and holdaper..


but aside from those, i could also see the positive side ng pagiging nasa siyudad.. (ang lalim!) at di na mwawala jan ang mraming gimikan. ofcourse! haha! malls, resto, bars, at kung anu ano pa! for teenagers like me, (huh?!) yun agad ang nkita kong beauty dito.. and so many gurls as well! syempre nman! more liberated. others are wild.. rrrarrrrr!!!


all the necessities are here. convenient stores, hospitals, churches, government establishments, transportation and all ay malapit lang.. autoload max, express load, at e-load ay 24hrs open. di mo na klangan manggising ng kpitbhay or tindahan in the middle of the night para lang maloadan ka. basta may pera ka, okay ka na..


to rap this up, city is good. masarap mabuhay dito. you'll not be bored. you get to meet a lot of people and experience different things. but i would still prefer to end my day sa place na tahimik, safer and comfortable, sa place where birds, trees, fresh air and food are plenty.
there's no place like home as they say...

"High School Never Ends"

Four years you think for sure
That's all you've got to endure
All the total dicks, all the stuck up chicks
So superficial, so immature.
Then when you graduate,
You take a look around and say HEY WAIT!
This is the same as where I just came from.
I thought it was over, Aw that's just great!

The whole damn world is just as obsessed.
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex,
Who's got the money, who gets the honeys,
Who's kinda cute and who's just a mess?
And you still don't have the right look,
And you don't have the right friends.
NOTHING CHANGES BUT THE FACES, THE NAMES AND THE TRENDS,,
High school never ends!!

Check out the popular kids,
You'll never guess what Jessica did.
How did Mary Kate lose all that weight.
And Katie had a baby so I guess tom's straight.
And the only thing that matters,
Is climbing up that social ladder.
Still care about your hair and the car you drive.
Doesn't matter if you're sixteen or thirty-five.

Reese Witherspoon, she's the prom queen.
Bill Gates, Captain of the chess team.
Jack Black, the clown, Brad Pitt, the quarterback.
I've seen it all before, I want my money back!

The whole damn world is just as obsessed,
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex,
Who's in the clubs, who's on the drugs,
Who's throwing up before they digest?
And you still don't have the right look,
And you don't have the right friends,
And YOU STILL LISTEN TO THE SAME SHIT YOU DID BACK THEN,,
High school never ends!!

The whole damn world is just as obsessed,
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex,
Who's got the money, who gets the honeys,
Who's kinda cute and who's just a mess?
And you still don't have the right look,
And I STILL HAVE THE SAME three FRIENDS,
And I'M PRETTY MUCH THE SAME AS I WAS BACK THEN,,
High school never ends!!

Here we go again!

birthday message

just wanna post this message i had a night before my 20th birthday. it was pretty @#%$... it goes like tis...


..all right! i want this one to be meaningful.

my life has been so colorful for the last 8 years. i must say na eto yung stage na most memorable and treasureable. it did so well for me, na i dont want pa to leave it behind. Gusto ko ganito na lang lagi. Maraming nangyare na unpredictable. there were priceless things, precious moments, untold secrets and all. Problems were there as well.

This stage won't last though. so i just wanna look back and give thanks to people i've spent and shared my teenage life wit. ( drama na, oo na! )

Dun sa taong dumaan, nagpakilala, sandaling nakasama, had a great impact, at lumisan, SALAMAT! i know God has His own reason kung bakit ganun.

Sa mga kaibigan, kabarkada, classmate at kakilala, SALAMAT PO NG MARAMI! it would have not been this perfect kung wala kayo.

Finally, to all my close, special ( sampaguitas ), and best friends, y'all help me grow and really touched my life. I appreciate what we're having right now and for that, a BIG HUG OF SALAMAT! i'll treasure all the laughters and tears.

I LOVE YOU GUYZ!!

And my wish?.. that what we've started won't change as time goes by... =)


and tha's it!

nang dahil kay ferdz

wala lang.. actually, am just really want to try this one out.. got intrested to have a blog.. i dunno. si ferdz kasi eh.. nagbrowse ng blog ng friend nya.. eh i find it cool, kea eto.. if you wanna know ferdz, he's also planning to have his own blog.. you guys just have to wait.. am sure, puro kalibugan na naman ilalagay nya dun.. hehe..
anyways, i dont really know, what this site is for. siguro, just to share things to people.. and maybe to learn how to express person's perspective..and as of now, wala pa ko maikukwento.. di naman ako writer..hehe.. wait nyo na lang siguro further posts ko.. probably, i get the chance to have something that will make sense!!